Monday, May 23, 2011

Did you ever have SO MANY things swirling around in your mind that you weren’t sure WHERE to start?
First of all, thank you for all of your inquires about Daddy. I’m sorry I have not responded to them all. He has declined rapidly over the last couple of months. He is now in his hospital bed that was set up in the master bedroom most of the day. There are times he looks at us and tries to talk, but can’t usually. He did tell me “bye” as I was leaving yesterday. He is very weak, and continues to lose weight. Feeding him his Ensures is almost a full time job, but in the last couple of days he has been refusing to drink them. Mom, of course has taken excellent care of him and each of us are there to help her around the clock. Daddy has never complained through his illness for the last six years. There is a far away look in his eyes most of the time now, but I’m praying that he is just seeing little glimpse of heaven.
Tim returned home last week from helping tornado victims in a couple of small towns in Alabama. The things he saw are hard to explain. When I walked past a tiny hole in my wall that I want to have fixed, it didn’t seem so important anymore after seeing and hearing what others have been going through.
In just a few weeks, I will be attending my 30 YEAR HIGH SCHOOL REUNION! Why did I write that in all caps? Let’s just say I’m a little shocked that the years have flown by for starters. I’m very excited to see everyone again! Some of those attending, I haven’t seen in 35 plus years. Some of us are getting “old. It seems that by the 30th my philosophy has become “it is what it is”. I’d thought about getting a spray tan so I wouldn’t glow white, and of course the right outfit to wear, and saying all of the right things, and so on and so on, but as the years go by all of that really pales in comparison to the true reason we should all look forward to see each other. Class cliques fade into the reality of life and all of the things we have in common like kids going off to college and their marriages, grandchildren, ailing parents, losing a spouse, our health or all of the other host of things . Money, houses, boats, status, looks, and popularity seem so superficial in this tough world we are all a part of now. A questionnaire was sent out to get info on our classmates. One question in particular got my attention…”What have you been up to in the last 30 years?”
Well, THAT’S A LOADED QUESTION for some of us! Lol. It made me stop and think…think….think. It took me a few weeks to answer. I then started thinking of one day when I reach Glory and the Lord asks…”What have you done with your life for the last ___ years? Hmmm…makes one think doesn’t it?